Well first off, I'd like to say "Fuck Off" (if you know that song your cool). Many people in the world don't know how it works, or what they need to do to survive in it. It hurts me when the people you love hate you because they don't know how important it is for someone to "step in" sometimes. I can deal with hate, can't deal with disrespect. Everyone can hate me all they want, talk behind my back if your that kind of person; whatever. But the moment you step across that line and show me ANY disrespect, I'll rip out your throat and break your neck. Respect is earned, to get it you must give it. That is the way it works with me. Most of the time I'm willing to be the first one to give that respect. My closest friends have seen that. There are the good friends I have, the amazing girlfriend I have, the people who care. Thank you, all of you, thank you for letting me be myself; not trying to change me. In a world where no one cares to listen, and a lot of you don't, you all are the ones that hear me.
Everyone has there own problems, theres no sense in causing drama over nothing. The people that do it are no better then the scum on the bottom of my shoe; you know who you are. People like you cause people like me to want to forget. But forgetting is bad, because if we forget then there is no hope for the future. Mistakes will be made over and over. I just want you all to know that "sometimes" its important to Step Back from the situation. Remember that there are two sides to every story, and you are not always right. Your human, make mistakes and learn from them. Its our strongest quality. Enjoy life.
I was walking down the side walk from the Union to work, and on the ground someone wrote out something in chalk. "Never be afraid to cross the line". I will never forget this quote. It made me do what I had to, I'm taking classes in the summer again. And I've never been happier. But never be "afraid" doesn't mean just charge in head first. You do have to be considerate of the situation and of other people.
I was talking to my Aunt, and a lot of the things she said to me made sense. My Grand Father, and My Father saw things the same way. It's either Black or White. Thats a good way to live, but to be successful you need to see things in gray sometimes. Not that my father wasn't successful, he just could have done so much more. I believe that even though I have viewing on the world as my father and grand father did, I can see gray sometimes. I like to call the "black and white" vision common sense.
The lack of common sense in the world, particularly in the United States, scares me. I have never been more afraid. These days, people would rather ask somebody else to do things then to figure it out on there own. Simply alarming.
For those of you who I thought we're my friends, I'll still always be here. For those of you who hate me, I'll still always be here. And for those of you who love me, I'm here.
music: Smashing Pumpkins- Bullet with Butterfly Wings